Scott Parker admits West Ham's hopes of staving off relegation do not look good and that he may have to consider a future away from the club.
The 30-year-old midfielder will tonight pick up the much-vaunted Football Writers' Association Footballer of the Year award in honour of his superb performances for the struggling Hammers this season.
The east Londoners languish bottom of the Barclays Premier League with just two matches remaining and Parker admits it will be a big ask to secure their place in the Barclays Premier League next season.
"It's not looking good. It's out of our hands a bit even if we win both our games," he told the London Evening Standard.
"I would be lying if I said we had a good opportunity of surviving but there's still a slight chance we can do something.
"All we can do is win our final two games and then see what happens. You never know."
He added: "From the minute that I signed for West Ham I learned what a good club they are, the history, the fan base.
"They're a massive club and it's a great shame that, over the past few years, they have been dogged by one problem after another.
"When the current owners took over it looked as though there would be more stability but then came this season and the poor results on the pitch.
"It's very disappointing and it hurts me a lot. I have the utmost respect for the fans. Yes, I'm winning awards because I'm playing the best football of my career.
"Why? Because I feel wanted here and it feels like home."
Parker has been with West Ham since 2007 and signed a new five-year contract in September 2010, making him the highest-paid player in the club's history.
However, the former Chelsea and Newcastle midfielder's future is unclear after West Ham co-owner David Gold revealed last week he would let the club's England internationals leave if they are relegated.
And while Parker professes to feel at home at West Ham, he admits relegation to the npower Championship could see him move onto pastures new.
"I'm like every player, I want to be playing at the highest level I can and in the Premier League," he said.
"I don't know what the future holds for me but, for the moment, I'm still keeping everything crossed that West Ham stay up. Otherwise . . ."