I am sure Alun Wyn Jones will come in for a lot of flak after being sin-binned and us then conceding 17 points. But what he did was just instinct. There was nothing malicious or premeditated about it. Alun Wyn is a real professional who I'm sure will deal with it and bounce back. There will be no finger-pointing by the players. We are all in this together. What we will be concentrating on is why, once again, we did not start playing until the 60th minute. It's a problem and something we can't put our finger on. But we will, because we have to. I just know that if we can put it together from the off then we are probably the best attacking team in the competition.
I honestly believed we were going to do it in those final 10 minutes, when we had pulled it back from 20-3 to 20-17. I thought to myself, "here we go again, another great Twickenham comeback, just like two years ago". But the problem when you're playing catch-up and chasing the score late on is that it only takes one mistake and the game is dead and buried. That's what happened with the interception try. Once again, no finger-pointing.
I wasn't happy with my performance. I dropped a sitter early on and although the defenders were all over me when I spilled a few more high balls, I was not at my best. I would like to get into the game more. That is my goal for the rest of the championship.
Yeah, it was a gutting result, but at least I was at Twickenham and not sitting at home or somewhere, watching it all on TV. Despite the defeat I would have been absolutely devastated if I'd missed it. It looked as if I would after the mix-up of me being the "16th man" in the Ospreys' game against Leicester two weeks ago.
There was no conspiracy and I see that as really stating the obvious. But I did plead guilty to misconduct because of the simple fact that I came back on without checking it properly with the referee. It was just me being mad keen to get back on, and being told by our coach to get back on, and just making an error in the way that we did it.
To say I'll know exactly what to do next time won't surprise you much! And the disciplinary process is something I never want to experience again. With hindsight maybe I should have gone over to the original hearing in Dublin instead of giving my evidence by phone. The really good thing was that I got a load of messages of support – mates texting me, obviously, but also random people coming up to me before I flew up to Glasgow for the appeal. It meant a lot.
I wish it could have ended with a win yesterday. Now we must focus on Scotland. There is plainly plenty of work to do and so much still to play for.Reuse content