A transgender father who left her family to be a six-year-old girl says that she cannot be an adult and "uses child’s play to escape adult life".
The uncut version of an interview by Daily Xtra with Stefonknee Wolscht explains how she makes life a game and how living as a six-year-old girl enabled her to escape from depression and suicidal thoughts.
“It’s called play therapy, no medication, no suicide thoughts and I just get to play,” she says.
She said that even in jail, where she spent nine days in solitary confinement (but does not explain what for), she played.
She made the cell a kingdom and sang songs there and would not be an adult, so she said they could not hurt her, saying, “If I’m six-years-old, I don’t have to think about adult stuff.”
Ms Wolscht still does adult things like drink coffee and drive a car, but does these things as a little kid.
As she was never allowed to be a little girl, she feels she is “filling that tank full of little girl experiences” and loves the fact that she has access to "really pretty clothes" and doesn’t have to act her age.
“By not acting my age, I don’t have to deal with the reality of my past, because it hurt” she says.
She goes on to explain that she has a “whole bunch of friends who want to play, so they still do their job during the day, but when they’re stressed out, there’s nothing wrong with us pulling out a puzzle, or colouring in a colouring book, or watching cartoons.”
She says that some people turn to drugs, some people turn to different kind of fetishes, medication or therapy.
But for Ms Wolscht, she prefers to “just let it go and stop thinking about big people’s stuff.”
When asked what she hopes this will achieve, Ms Wolscht replies, “Well, eventually I will grow up.”
Ms Wolscht was married to a woman for 23 years and has seven children. She began her transition six years ago.
Her wife gave her an ultimatum: to either stop being trans or leave. But Ms Wolscht said she "did not know how to stop being trans".
“It would be like telling me to stop being 6ft 2 or leave”, she said in the published interview.
She now lives with an adopted family, who she says are “totally comfortable with me being a little girl.”
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