Willow Smith reveals to mum Jada Pinkett Smith that she used to cut herself

The musician said it started after she released her first single "Whip My Hair"

Ilana Kaplan
Tuesday 15 May 2018 18:31 BST
Willow Smith reveals she used to self-harm when first famous

Jada Pinkett Smith's daughter Willow Smith revealed she began self-harming after the release of her hit single "Whip My Hair" at nine years old on Jada's new Facebook series Red Table Talk.

On Monday's episode titled "Surviving Loss," the 17-year-old musician opened up to her mother and grandmother Adrienne Banfield Jones about cutting herself to cope with loss.

Willow said that the fame that came from "Whip My Hair" led her to a "dark place."

"I would have to say I honestly feel like I lost my sanity at one point,” she said. “It was after that whole ‘Whip My Hair’ thing and I had just stopped doing singing lessons and I was kind of just in this grey area of, ‘Who am I? Do I have a purpose? Is there anything I can do besides this?’"

She explained that the confusion she felt led her to self-harm: "After the tour and the promotion and all of that, they wanted me to finish my album. And I was like, I’m not gonna do that. After all of that kind of settled down, I was listening to a lot of dark music and it was just so crazy."

Willow said she fell into a "black hole" and was "cutting myself and doing crazy things."

Jada was shocked by Willow's reveal, claiming she had never suspected anything.

"What?" she said. "Really? When were you cutting yourself? I didn’t see that part? Cutting yourself where?"

Her daughter then went onto show her scars on her inner arms saying, "You can't even see it. There’s still a little something there. Totally lost my sanity for a moment there."

Willow admitted no one in her family knew what she was dealing with and that she only told one friend.

"I honestly felt like I was experiencing so much emotional pain but my physical circumstances weren’t reflecting that," she explained.

Willow immediately stopped cutting herself when she realised it was "psychotic."

She proudly said she hasn't self-harmed in five years. ​

If you or someone you know needs someone to talk to and is self-harming, depressed or suicidal, The Samaritans can be contacted in the UK on 116 123. In the US, the National Suicide Prevention Hotline is 1-800-273-8255.

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